Sometimes I wonder...
if I'm not good enough,
if people leave me because
they can see
how I control them
when all I want is to be pitied
to be understood so they can
remember me.
Sometimes I wonder...
if I'm alone in this cause
if my pain and hurt can pause
when I breathe.
When there is nothing
I find myself in disguise
project my own pain in lies
to find relief.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm not
good enough, if people leave because
they can see the true nature of
my insecurities.
How it's completely selfish
even if I tried to show how it
doesn't affect me.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm not
brave enough to face the things I love
to accept the truth and reject
my own authority.
How it's completely sensible,
even if it seems impossible,
does it affect me?
And that's when I start thinking about myself.
It's too sad to be alone, to think alone.
That's what I was told by others
I can't do these things on my own.
I do that labour for free and silently.
The notion of contribution
blind-sighted it's all that I can see.
credits
from Contribution EP,
track released July 29, 2020
Written by Katie Lee
Co-produced by Katie Lee & Raf Wilcot
Mixed and Mastered by Raf Wilcot
Falling somewhere in the wonderful middle ground between jazz, post-rock, and indie, Yuurei Shimai writes songs full of restless tension. Bandcamp New & Notable Feb 5, 2023