Sometimes I wonder...
if I'm not good enough,
if people leave me because
they can see
how I control them
when all I want is to be pitied
to be understood so they can
remember me.
Sometimes I wonder...
if I'm alone in this cause
if my pain and hurt can pause
when I breathe.
When there is nothing
I find myself in disguise
project my own pain in lies
to find relief.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm not
good enough, if people leave because
they can see the true nature of
my insecurities.
How it's completely selfish
even if I tried to show how it
doesn't affect me.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm not
brave enough to face the things I love
to accept the truth and reject
my own authority.
How it's completely sensible,
even if it seems impossible,
does it affect me?
And that's when I start thinking about myself.
It's too sad to be alone, to think alone.
That's what I was told by others
I can't do these things on my own.
I do that labour for free and silently.
The notion of contribution
blind-sighted it's all that I can see.
credits
from Contribution EP,
track released July 29, 2020
Written by Katie Lee
Co-produced by Katie Lee & Raf Wilcot
Mixed and Mastered by Raf Wilcot
Where do I even start? Every song on this record creates such a terrifying, yet beautiful atmosphere that no other artist could ever come close to replicating:
The claustrophobic feel of 'I Want You to Suffer' creates a heavy blanket of noise that just crushes you with anxiety.
The steady creeping nature of 'Lucifer Stand' (and its surreal ending sample.)
The somber sound and lyrics of 'Just for Loving You...' It's all perfect.
Well done. Well done. ratboy
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a bold statement. while I can't say I'm deeply in love of every moment of it, there's something about it that speaks to me quite strongly. highly recommended Watching Nebula